For the last few years I have struggled to find work. It has been in the last year that i have found some. First at Hardees and for the last 2 months at IHOP (International House of Pancakes) as a dishwasher. To be honest working in a dish room again was something of a nostalgic dream job. But to be honest my dreams have been dashed to pieces. A couple of weeks ago I was watching Sword Art Online. An anime series i had heard about so i downloaded it. The episodes that got me in tears was the Honeymoon/Yui arc. Where Kurito and Asuna have their honeymoon and adopt a girl they find lost in the forest named Yui. The trio have a wonderful looking house and spend time together. I was bought to tears at their happiness, but i was also jealous. I wanted what they had. A family, a home of my own.
Since then i have been miserable and discontent at my job. I realize now that i will never achieve any of my dreams if i keep getting jobs at minimum wage. I want a better and a better future. So every day at IHOP feels like a miserable dead end. Even if i satisfied with the work and my co-workers aren’t immature ghetto hood rats. I am unsatisfied with the future this job and jobs like it present to me. There is no future for me at IHOP and i see that now.
I also feel the pain in my body as well. Every day at work my right shoulder and arm start to ache whenever i lift something or move the arm a certain way. I know this means i may have a repetitive motion injury but i haven’t had time to go to my doctor and confirm. So that’s a motivator and another spot of worry for me with this job. I f i am somehow injured then i would have no choice but to leave the job or risk further aggravating the injury. Well for now, enough whining. i need to get to bed, i have to get up early for work.