I am now 38 years old. Have been for a while now. And as I look at myself in the mirror a slight fear begins to creep over me. What am I going to do?
As i look at older men i wonder how they did it. How can they be so content with being single, no children. I always wanted to get married, settle down, have kids, and just have a steady job. But I meet some older men who just have the job and nothing else. Yet they’re happy. How do they do it? I don’t think I can live like that.
I’m not really sure what to do anymore, other then just continue what feels like a pointless struggle some days. If there is the light at the end of this tunnel i just pray it isn’t a old train barreling down on me. And i wake up one morning in my 50’s realizing just how much my life sucks, and how much i failed to accomplish with the life God gave me.